Finally A Day With Dad

Well, yesterday we FINALLY got to spend an afternoon with dad. This was the first since he started treatment three weeks ago. He chose yesterday because he starts his second round of chemo on Monday and this is probably the best he'll feel for another few weeks. We all met at Sunol and had a great time. The kids were overjoyed to see him, and so was I. But watching him play with his grandkids all afternoon made me feel great.

I was a little nervous about what to expect. I've seen people undergoing treatment, and I wasn't sure how bad he would look. But as it turned out he just looked like dad. He's lost some wait, but actually looked good. It was an amazing thing to see.

I talked to Jan a little, and could see that it's taking it's toll on her. I wish I knew what to say or do to let her know how much her taking care of my dad means. I know that I can't even begin to imagine what this must be like for her. She told me that his bad days are bad. He gets confused, takes the wrong medication, and does stuff that's just not him. She got a little choked up, and I just wish there was some way to show her.

This is all still very scary, and I wish I knew if this was helping him or not. I wish I knew that he was going to up for another visit like yesterday in three weeks.